Zeb has been let go. Not fired but in this economy I guess it was bound to happen. Ya know what's funny though i am in love with a man who is crazy about politics and debating about them and yet i am completely ignorant to politics and economics. Zeb is almost obsessed with conspiracy theories. I think i really am just an air head I feel like such a little kid whenever I hear people talking about Obama or the economy, maybe I'll take a class in college to better expand my understanding of it all.
Also, ma and pa are officially divorcing...It's all so crazy I should be more broken up about it but I guess i saw coming for so many years that it doesn't faze me as it should. I'm sad because my dad is sad. my mom doesn't seem sad at all and that makes me angry. It makes me angry because I think maybe my mom was never happy. One night She had a really strong coffee and just went crazy saying maybe she never wanted to be a wife or mother. Ever since then I believe my mom has been living a lie all this time. I don't want to judge my mom I mean she has had a hard life but...I cant help but be mad at her for all this. My dad and I are exactly the same we both are too sensitive so I guess that's why he talks to me about this stuff the most and confides in me so much.
:Sigh: I really don't want this whole entry to be so depressing. So let's see my new job is fine much like the old one same company different location. I really wanna start working at a hospital or maybe volunteer at one. Get my foot in the door ya know? Our apartment is beautiful and I really enjoy living here on my own almost independently so I really hope it doesn't end.
I'll leave off with a wish that everything will turn around...my mom would always say think positive but I don't think she took her own advice so I will try and take it for her and think as positively as I can. I am full of stress and worry but Zeb is calm and happy So I hope we can balance ourselves out and pull through. I know we will be alright.
Very insightful, Ashley.
ReplyDeleteI hope everything gets better. :(
For both you and Zeb.
I love you very much.
<3